Rabbit Holes and Procrastination

Sat down to write my morning pages.
A good sign: It was actually morning.

Read an article on procrastination and, armed with a number of coping strategies, promptly procrastinated for 40 minutes.
[And really, was reading the article itself an act of procrastination? It’s ugly out there in the land of put-offs. So many unresolved issues…]

rabbit_ferreting

Follow me on my tumble down the rabbit hole:

Email from my nephew led to…
∼ Tongue-in-cheek video about the dreariness of the month of February led to…
∼ Tongue-in-cheek video about graffiti in the St. Louis area led to…
∼ Video interview featuring the wife of a slain St. Louis area police officer [I really need to turn off the YouTube ads/related videos** led to…
∼ News footage immediately after his shooting led to…
∼ News article about the shooting suspect’s distraught father

I shook myself away from that heartbreaking thread and ventured back to my email, which led to…
∼ Khan Academy update on Pixar’s quality exploration of storytelling, which led to…
∼ One segment’s inspiration to use our own storytelling superpower: our personal perspective, which led to…
∼ a lesson from Pixar artists on shading [I shared that with my wife, an art teacher.]

Was it a productive 40 minutes?
Well, I’m at least writing about my procrastination. (Classic rationalization, but it works for me…)
Still, as I confessed on my previous word cloud post

** I use safeshare.tv to clean up a YouTube screen for me, though it requires a few steps.]

Whoa, was I off base…

So, cut to: Guide to Literary Agents blog.

I’m entering the 30th Free “Dear Lucky Agent” Contest [URL is also below].

Requirements: A first page of an unpublished middle grade fiction manuscript.

I pulled up a favorite piece and fully expected the first 300 words to need a mere light polishing.

Uhhhh, no. Major delusion.

Pen in hand, I started reading and winced at bloated phrasing, forced metaphors, and unnecessary details. Ugly, very ugly.

Luckily, I tightened things up and let it rest for a day.

Good thing.

Once again, the piece needed more clarification and a shifting of the sequence.

My conclusion: I’ve either improved the piece or I’ve locked into version two of my delusion.

Either way, I’m submitting it today.

Will it win? Shrug.

But did I win?

Absolutely. I picked up a heartless reminder to revise and revise some more. And, by putting my work in the hands of those who judge for a living, I’ve–at least for today–thumbed my nose at resistance.

Here’s the contest URL:  http://tinyurl.com/jb6max3 Come join me.

If You’re Trying to Teach Kids How to Write: What I’ve gleaned…

If You’re Trying to Teach Kids How to Write, You’ve Gotta Have This Book is one of the books I’ve been revisiting.

I probably never turned to page 20 when I used it for teaching, but the author insisted that we readers [i.e. teachers] take an inventory of ourselves as writers.

Fair enough…

Here were the questions she posed:

1. Do you like writing?

I absolutely do like writing, but I’m probably in a large club of writers who prefer the thrill of first-draftish writing–getting the ideas on paper. I also prefer pen-and-notebook to composing on a screen.

2. Do you think writing is hard, or easy, or both?

Writing is most certainly both. As I stated above, I do like first drafts, but it seems when it’s revision time, the hateful editor creeps in with not just nasty comments about word choice, etc. but more than a few intimations that my whole project–no matter how miniscule–is of questionable value. That’s when writing is hard. It’s also annoyingly difficult when a version from two weeks ago sounds better than what is currently on the screen.

3. How do you feel about yourself as a writer?

I don’t work hard enough. I don’t read enough. I don’t work past first draft level enough. Enough [catching the theme here?] said.

4. Have you grown as a writer in the past five years? How?

In some ways, I have grown as a writer. For one, posting this Q. and A. is a sign of growth. Working from resources like Jeff Goins’ You Are a Writer, Austin Kleon’s Show Your Work, and Mark Levy’s Accidental Genius shows I’m taking this all more seriously.

5. Can you identify your strengths and weaknesses as a writer?

Along with the shortcomings mentioned in answer #3, I get bogged down with muddy middles and I let resistance waylay me far too often. [Sorry, S Pressfield! I’ll keep working on that.]

Strengths–I think I’ve come up with interesting premises for stories. And I’ve been told my dialogue isn’t bad.